"Far, Far from Land" - Kristen McMenamy photographed by Tim Walker for W magazine (December 2013)
collections that are raw as fuck ➝ dolce & gabbana fall 2006
I want them all! D:
For the last 6 years I’ve been at war with myself over someone. He ticks all the boxes. Our chemistry is intense. I remember when we’d lock ourselves for days in his room. Falling asleep next to him was always painful. For the fear I’d miss out on seeing him. Then again he’d keep me awake with his snoring…and I didn’t mind.
I’d dream of us being together. I’d dream of having his children. Being able to come home to him or he to me. I dreamed to go to sleep with him and wake up with him and just do everything in between, with him.
The sad thing is, although I knew this was not going to be, I still allowed myself to be his rebound. Or he be mine. Anything to see him, touch him. Talk to him and spend time with him.
All along knowing, he didn’t feel the same.
It saddens me that I can’t get him out of my head. It angers me that not matter how much I try, I still think of him every day. Feeling a rising jealousy of any girl who gets to spend time with him, an aching pain in my heart because I’ve found out he now has a new girlfriend.
The thing is, he’s not good enough for me. And although I know him and I know his faults I still long to be with him. Thus sabotaging my own love life with someone whom may actually be the right person for me because I am too blinded by this one person whom has never (and most likely will never) feel the same way I do about him.
So here’s to learning about self respect and knowing I am worth more.
Here is, learning to love myself.
The best gif in circulation.
one of the worst moments in life is probably when you’re in a room full of people and you look around and see them all talking and laughing and all of sudden you feel so sad and lonely that you can even feel a physical pain in your chest because you realize that they all belong to someone and they all have someone who belongs to them and you don’t, you’re just kind of there